Really?

FFS.

One cannot appeal to the masses. When one tries, one loses all interest, from all parties, including oneself.

For those of you who understand that, yay. If not, good.

Sigh, really? If there is a problem, tell me.

Don't like me? Tell me.

If there is anything at all, TELL ME.

Don't go around hinting that there is a problem. JUST FREAKING COME OUT AND SAY IT.

Sigh.

I wanna turn the hands of time back.

Or, just shoot the clock.

Ciao.

GUITARRRRRRRR

CVIC post will come. Soon. Too lazy now. GUITARRRR!!!! I r haz bought a guitar today! It's left handed!!!! Fina. It's model can't be found, because it's a prototype model that they were trying to sell off. So yea, as you know the show products are always more awesome, AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT MEH GUITAR ISSS, AWESOMEEEEE!!!!!!

PICTUREEEEE!!!!!!

This picture is nice, except for the Arsenal book there = =

I like this picture a lot.

Thinking back, I should have wiped/polished it before taking the pictures, oh well =D

Ciao!!!

Time for the longest post in recorded history, if my attention span is able to hold =D and also longest title evar!

TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Is a Friday. There are multiple stories in this one long post, so yea, they go by days.























Anyways, today, we were to leave our classes after break, and go straight to the CPAC floor to practice, cuz after school some of us had the Sherlock Holmes thingy.

Note, I will be writing this really fast like, cuz my attention span is fading, I am currently forcing myself to write this :P


Anyways, we sang, nothing special, Brian and I talked about WoW, HE PLAYS PRIVATE SERVERS TOO! Lol, and he just might pull me back in =O






OK, on to the Sherlocky thingy. My group ditched me. And by that I mean, my whole class ditched me. So I went there solo. SCIENCE TWO REPRESENTIN'!





Anyways, I got grouped with Cheng How and Brenda. Law.

They helped as best they could, and did prove helpful. Enough. Well, not really. I may have been able to solve more things if I had someone else to help read and explain as well, but then again, beggars can't be choosers.


It was actually more fun that I thought it would be, solving stuff and all. But alas in the end, we ended up without a reason with solid evidence, EDMOND, I KNOW HOW YOU GOT YOUR ANSWER.






I Think that about sums up the 1st day, I'm really tired, but I wanna finish at least Saturday before I sleep.

OH YEA, SORRY SHUK YIN!! FOR NOT GOING TO BLG WITH YOU EVENTHOUGH I SAID I MIGHT!! Lol.

OK SATURDAYYYYYY, or CATURDAYYYYY!


As usual, went to tuition at Shuk's house. AT 7 45AM!!!!! So tuition, and by some miracle, I arrived early =O cuz the teacher wasn't there yet, and Shuk and Drawde were watching Prom Night.


CX was late, as usual xD


Tuition............bla bla bla BM stuff that I will never again use in my life and so on.


ALRIGHTTTT Now, after tuition! Me and CX went to da gym, nearby, that he is a member of. It was awesome! I've never been to a gym before, I mean, like actually use the stuff there, so I was like WOAHH. The was so much equipment there and stuffs. And for some reason, that day I was so freaking weak, couldn't even do 10 chin ups = = did 5 then mati.


OH yea I was also playing with the skipping rope, I was on a roll, at like 30+ I was spinning the rope so fast there was the sound *wooooosh* then I kena'ed my leg = = then ya know, it stopped.


And after that work out, we went to eatttttttttttt KFC. Lol. Yea. ORITE!!


The zinger tower is awesome. And spicy!

Anyways, THANK YOU CHING XONG FOR GIVING ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO SIT IN A ONE OF A KIND CAR IN MALAYSIA!!! A red coloured Volkswagen Passat with beige interior xD

And with guy directions to his driver(kiri, kanan, terus lol) I got home, AND 3/4 OF THE JOURNEY I NOTICED I LEFT MY BM FILE IN THE GYMMMMMMMM Luckily CX got it for me on Monday, BUT HAS YET TO GIVE IT BACK TO ME lol.

Normal Caturday.

NOW FOR SUNDAY!!! Really big day for me, which I have been preparing for, for 10 years.

It was my confirmation!!! Brief summary of what confirmation is. It is the sacrament of me being an official Catholic, as when I was a baby, my mom chose for me to be a Catholic.

After that we went to RedBox in Gardens, 1st time in my life I've been to karaoke o.o it's so bloody loud = =

Right now I'm just summarizing everything, so much for longest post ever = =

Fast forward toooooo Monday! Which was a holiday, for most people, not including me.

Twas the 1st day of long hours of CVIC practice, practice. Yea.

Woke up late, got to school, semi late, was greeted at the door by an angel(Wei Yeen) and the devil(Yoong Wei) xD Then went to the dance studio, for choreography. Dancing is underrated, for people like me, it's harder than diamond = = I still stumble and stuff.

Met this Damansara guy called...umm Andrew...forgot his Chinese name = = Andrew is much easier to remember.

Bla bla bla nothing special I think, I can't remember too well = =

GRRR I don't remember anything. My memory loss has been more frequent recently, I even forgot Wei Yeens Phone number = =

Yay! I just typed it out and checked I got it right!

Now Tuesday!

More CVIC practice, and bla bla bla just normal stuff, got to know Sheun Wern(I didn't know how to spell his name, luckily he added me on facebook xD), damn these Form 3's are huge = = all taller than me including Andrew, I think he's Form 3 as well, I don't remember either that or Form 4. Anyways moar just normal stuffs.

He's Form 3 I asked lol.

Now for Wednesday!!! Today right now when I'm typing this is Thursday lol.

Normal stuffs and bla bla bla, OH we had a jam session in the morning with Luqman cuz he brought is guitar. Gabriel is freaking strong, OH and his dad belanja-ed us pizza =D hmm delicious, it was finished by Xwei, Zhe Xi, Luqman, Muhaimin, and Josh. According to Zhe Xi.

Oh yea, we were supposed to wear black, but I couldn't find a black shirt so I took my brother's dark blue shirt, WHICH WAS HUGEEEE!! But Ranil was nice enough to lend me his shirt =D

And Shuk was wearing Brenda's shirt, which was, super low cut and kesian her, cuz she was standing right in front of the stage xD

We got to try on the robes and stuff, and look like monks xD not the Chinese monks, think the fat friar from Robin Hood.

And I kept getting gastric = = and after school went to cheer! Ran 3 round around the field, after the 1st round I stopped for awhile, and didn't stop for the 2nd and 3rd round!

And my gastric came back, and while I was lying on the table in the canteen, Wei Cher came over and was a whore

WC: Dude you alright?
Me: I'm having gastric.
WC: Can I borrow 2 bucks?
Me: = = no my wallet is far away.

Anyways, Hao Zheng gave me some of those milo ball things in the packet, I ate it and it helped for awhile, did elevator like 2 times, and liberty once. Then ran out of strength and gastric came back.

Attention span running low!

[2/3/10 12:02:17 AM] l e N g[吴仪琳]: ivan write this in your blog !
[2/3/10 12:02:23 AM] l e N g[吴仪琳]: EE LENG IS AWESOME

Lol that's what Leng told me when I said I was lazy to blog xD

WOOOOOO Thursday!! I've finally caught up with myself!!

Ok, today, was normal in the morning, only diff is that I found a black shirt to wear =D I still had to wear it inside out but wtv. Oh and we got our Chimera shirts today,

Yea, those are Chimera's from WoW and Warcraft 3 respectively xD

Why Chimera? Cuz that's the title of this years concert! Today we had our 1st concert for primary! It was meh, we did a full dress rehearsal and stuff. Anyways our choreography is still suckish, cuz everyone doesn't know when to do what, only a few do, and you don't know who to follow xD

Anyways bla bla bla and bla I STILL KEEP SINGING THE TENOR PART FOR LES FLUR DUMAL!! Or however you spell it. So I'mma just lipsync for that part tomorrow.

And normal stuffs, XWEI LOST HER PURSE!!!!!!! If anyone has seen it, yea, its red.

Tomorrow is the real concert! And I only have to reach school at 1. And I'm going to go guitar shopping on Saturday!!! I'm thinking of getting an electric as well. And if I can't find a left handed acoustic, I'mma just get a normal one and restring it with a diff bridge and nut.

Alright I shall finish this with just that. WOOOOOO FINISHED THE SUPER LONG POST!

Ciao!

Guess who's back?

Noooooo! It has returned. Why! I've been without it for such an amount of time, and it has to come back....

What happened to my old friend, who has stood by me all these years? Suddenly, out of nowhere, a new person comes in. They both co-exist for sometime without problems. And then the environment starts to favor the new arrival. Soon, the old bone is thrown to the back, with the occasional voice heard.

What has happened?

"It" happened.

Now I sit, longing for the past. Wondering how life would be, if what did, didn't proceed as planned. And what would be, if I had taken the only other big turning.

Perhaps it's best not to wonder on the past.

Yeesh, why can't things go back the way it was.

Less complicated, less hassle.

Now life is so different.

The changes and cycles that revolve.

They leave nothing untouched, and manage to change most.

I wonder....can I turn those gears back?

Make then run in reverse?

Slowly return?

Would I want to?

Would I be able to do it?

Who knows.

More importantly, it'll never happen, so yea, no point thinking about it.

For the sake of what deserves, I shall hold on, with mask in hand.

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Memory loss starting to be more frequent now. Today I walked into my room, and stood there for about a minute, wondering what I was doing there.

I did remember eventually.

Sheeh, BM tuition tomorrow, morning. And I can't go to the gym with Ching Xong after that. No transport.

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Life is so difficult to understand, when you go looking for answers.

But easy to go by, if you let it roll.

The pull of conscience is all that grounds me.

Or life would be much easier.

To be free to wander, away from what is right.

Why must this be?

Why can't it be different?

Why do I ask these?

Enough of this.

Good night all.

Ciao.

Terribly interesting

I have very, very recently, and by that I mean a few minutes ago, found out that a fellow umm, yearmate? Yeah, I'm making up words. Anyways, a fellow student in the same year as I, is ambidextrous. Which means, I'm not alone! Though I am cross dominant, not ambi =D

Anyways, I got a bit interested, and started searching for ambidextrous related things, and found this very interesting blog.

http://pathtoambidexterity.blogspot.com/

Yea, it's a guy who wanted to become ambidextrous, and his journey through it. And this intrigued me. But then, I found this, which disturbs me.

http://www.linkshaender-beratung.de/english/Ambidextrous.htm

Consequences of Converting Handedness. The handedness of a human being is an expression of an inborn, innate lateralization of the cerebral hemispheres where one side dominates. In the neural system, the tracts are "crossed". Thus, a dominant right cerebral hemisphere results in a dominant left hand and a dominance of the left cerebral hemisphere is responsible for right-handedness [18].
Converting handedness, whether it be from a dominant left hand to a non-dominant right or the reverse, (especially during writing) does not result in a change in cerebral dominance but rather a multifaceted cerebral disturbance or damage. This functional cerebral damage (dysfunction, blockage, and inhibition of brain functioning) can then be manifest in the following primary disorders: disturbances in memory for all three areas of information processing (encoding, storage, and recall); difficulty in concentration (early fatigue); difficulty in reading and spelling (legasthenic problems); spatial disorientation (e.g. confusion of left and right); speech problems ranging from stammering to stuttering; fine motor disturbances evident in writing and other activities requiring precision.
The primary consequences can then go on and transform into secondary consequences: feelings of inferiority; shyness; introversion; overcompensation; defiance to belligerence; braggadocio; provocative behavior; bed-wetting; nail-biting; emotional problems that can last into adulthood with neurotic and/or psychosomatic symptomology; and personality disturbances [ 3,4,7,8,9,11,14] . 

Granted I know most of you readers wont read that long passage up there, so I'll summarizes it for y'all. Converting of handedness, like me, how I write with both hands, and other related stuff. Apparently takes a toll on your brain, and causes things like memory loss and brain damage. Also tons of other defects.

I actually fit a few of those symptoms there, so those theories might hold some merit, or I'm just screwed up in the brain by default. =P

Ambidexterity is therefore neither a goal to aspire to nor is it a gift from God. Instead, it is first and foremost the mark of brain damage.

I tell these ppl, to stfu. They're probably jealous. xD

Either way me doesn't care. I are born this way, I are will continue on this way =D

Oh, and some of the girls, I forgot who, seriously, didn't know Ben/Edmond, were left handed xD But nothing really out of the ordinary there, as those two buggers are very ambidextrous, Ben throws with his right hand, Edmond holds a bat with a right hander stance, and so on.

Argh, I wanna finish BM quick so I can go sleep = =

OMG LA, MY BRO'S ROOM IS FULL OF MOSQUITOES! 

Ciao!

I need a reminder

Why am I here again? I could use some memory refreshing.

Anyways, here be the downlow of stuffs.

Shuk Yin wants to buy a guitar.

I can do cartwheels.

If you go watch voices, you'll get to see hooded people with masks spinning around.

Cartwheels are dangerous, to MY arm = =

Arm is injured.

Something is up/brewing. Best I don't ask.

Is currently disappointed in a person, who tends to disappoint.

Life is funny, at times.

I can only type with one hand now, if I wanna let my arm heal faster. Which is making this take so long.

I'm gonna go finish my rumusan then go sleep.

Ciao.

Wonder if y'all could tell that I'm in a silent mood.

Late nights with Ivan!

Haha, more poetry!

If she was a laser,
She'd be set to stun.
Come to think of it,
Her smile's more dangerous than a gun.

It can stop my heart,
From 100 yards away.
Cause me sleepless nights,
Day after day.

Just like the common cold,
She's here to stay.
Only difference is that,
I'd rather get her any day.

Woo, first line is cheesier than buttered cheese in a cheese factory made of cheese. I know =P

OH GOSH it's 2:10, I really should sleep now.....

Ciao!